Let's cut to the chase.
Why I wrote my title as 'Grateful' is because I've read many blogs of friends and family of mine and that same thought appeared in my head after reading their posts about their life. I was constantly thinking:"Wow. My life is peaceful." I mean, I'm not bragging or whatever fuck. It's just that I felt their pain, their burden, their restlessness but I cannot truly understand their situations as I myself had not been in their shoes. Oh, I can be very sensitive at times and I can also be a total dope at times either. I've read about their life being so frantic, so hectic, so... dramatic. Well, of course I wouldn't want these things to happen in my life, like, who wants these things to happen? So I was like:"Thank God I had not been through these situations and all." But, there's always a but, I have my own issues that I'm dealing with which are too personal to be posted anywhere on the Internet that I'm very confused about. Okay, I shouldn't take this topic any further.
So, I really am sincere and worried about those people whose life are really in darkness. You might not believe me but I truly am. It's like, you know that feeling you get when you see someone in trouble but you've got no idea how and you can't help that person at all. Yeah, that helpless feeling. You feel so... stupid because you got absolutely no idea how to help them, or at least lift up their souls. Yes, I'm afraid that when I help them, I might make things worse cuz I've always been like that. All the time. Might as well just, stay out of it BUT I FUCKING CAN'T! urghhh I can't just ignore them. I don't know why but that's just me! I can pretend to not give a fuck but I really do care, about everyone around me. Yes, even I might say that I hate them or whatever but I really don't. I just..can't. Yes, you can call me taking it too much or whatever but I'm just being passionate. Well, of course as a friend, that is if you are my friend. If my close friends and the bests, owh you should see me.
Oh well, it's like 3:47am now and most probably I'm gonna wake up at 3pm tomorrow lol or even..4 LOL meh most probably my mom would call me to ask what do I wanna eat for lunch :9 So, yeah, I'm signing off.
